One of the oddest things I’m finding about grief is how quickly things can go from totally ok, to completely falling apart, lurching back...

There has been a box sitting on a side table in our kitchen for over a year. It had all the stuff that was previously on that table...

The finalising Pete’s Estate has been a weird bag of emotions. Mostly it’s sad and empty feeling, with a whole lot of weight attached....

To try and give us some capacity to cope with the current isolation situation, we have come home to my parents’ farm in the NSW Riverina....

All through last year I had a very large number of people tell me: you just have to get through the first year. And I did. And we...

Sometimes I find myself able to predict the days that are going to be hard. And then there is this week. Which is seemingly an emotional...

The thing I’ve discovered lately is that despite the amount of time passes, nothing changes. And everything changes. But there’s still...

Everyone has heard the adage about opinions and everyone having them. I just never expected so many to be given to me about my grief and...

The anniversary of Pete’s death was like this big ‘thing’ we all had in our head with no idea how to tackle. I mean, what do you do? It’s...

This week I have been childless and spending time on my own. It’s an odd experience for me who basically hasn’t had any time in my own...

Celebrating my 40th birthday without Pete wasn’t something that was ever going to happen. He was always going to be front and centre of...

So Christmas and New Years has come and gone. Come and gone in a whirl of anxiety, overly generous presents, wine, family, gin, friends...

It’s the end of the year and I have zero idea how we are going to negotiate the next month with what it holds. It is now 11 months since...

This whole widowing thing has a lot of horns on it at the minute and it has been a pretty extraordinary learning curve that just keeps...

Last weekend I successfully navigated one of the most logistically and emotionally challenging weekends to date. If I thought some of the...

One of the big advantages to having Pete cremated was that if anything happened to the significant pieces of jewellery, there would be...

I have fallen down a few rabbit holes on Instagram recently following hastags relating to widows. I have no idea when and how it started....

We have nothing on, and no where to be - except home and our regular extra curricular activities - for 4 weeks. Finally having a few...

The animals who joined our family in January this year are turning one. And so that means we’ve almost negotiated a year of not having...

There are so many things that are hard to do now - and not all of them I was expecting. But the thing is, some of the hardest things...