A decade of a Little Man in the house
This guy turns 10 today. Our Ute Muster baby who has this appropriately inappropriate story about his 3-week-early arrival that includes...
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Letting go of the moving parts is hard work
It’s been 8 months since we lost Pete and I’ve been trying to get control of our world. And failing. I have been trying everything to...
How sharing Pete means we get to remember what a good person he was to more than us
Since Pete has died, he has received recognition like I never could have imagined. I am constantly blown away by how much people thought...
Winning premierships without the #1 fan
Last weekend everyone in our house lined up for a hockey grand final. It was Pete’s perfect supporter scenario and he wasn’t here to see...
Is an emotional hangover harder than an alcoholic one?
While we got through Father's Day last weekend seemingly all intact, the reality is, that on Monday morning, we all woke up with an...
Father’s Day without Pete
In my head I have a mental count of all the hard things we have coming up that I know will be difficult without Pete because they are...
The comforts of home
Last weekend I went home to my home town and attended the first event in that town since Pete died. I had spent a lot of time completely...
🦄 Unicorn hunting, Tinder and the odd things you miss
One of the things I wasn’t expecting about widowing is some of the things people say ... and some of the things I would miss. Most...
What I’ve learned in 6 months of widowing
Today marks 6 months since Pete died. I cannot get my head around the fact it has been half a year. How can it be half a year already?...
Another birthday ... the firsts just keep on coming
We now officially have a teenager in the house. And her Dad isn’t here to celebrate with her. And she has cried a lot about that. Our...
When steak sends you over the edge
The thing about trying to make sure you’ve got everything under control is that when you don’t, sometimes you really don’t. No matter how...
The party that started it all ... apparently
Nineteen years ago a friend had a birthday party. It was a small affair in this friend’s back yard ... in the middle of winter. As with...
We are no longer ‘average’
There is a lot of paperwork to sign when someone dies. Like ... A LOT. There is even more when the person who dies doesn’t have a Will....
So, I got myself a job...
The best thing about the skill set I have is that I can work anywhere. As long as I have a reliable internet connection, for most of the...
When cuddles just aren’t enough
This week has basically boiled down to one thing - the kids want their Dad back. Tears. Tantrums. Tears. Yelling. Kicking. Tears....
There’s a legacy dog and a fur child to keep alive, too.
This whole life without Pete circus isn‘t just about keeping children functioning, our family has four legged members in it that have...
The silence is deafening
The first time I slept in a bed beside Pete, I didn’t. And not for that reason, either 😉 I lay awake all night and I thought there was...
How champagne makes a bad week better, and also helps celebrate birthdays.
Pete‘s birthday came around in a week that also included Mother‘s Day and the arrival of his death certificate. It was a week where I...
Grieving - skipping steps and having kids stuck on one
According to researchers*, there are five distinct stages of grief the majority of individuals will experience. These stages include...
Can shoes fill the void of a dead husband
In the last little while I've been attempting a bit of citizen science around grieving. Namely, can shoes fill the voice of a dead...
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